pattern "capture"?

unconscious thoughts, "notice" that i have been thinking that (or even just thinking), instant (or simultaneous) guilt/condemnation/frustration.  thus the latter almost seems what conscious is.

then the "i give up", attention captivating distractions, depress all these before, ...

the pattern of "trying" to see the pattern in a "moment" of time.  like trying to remember a video as well as just watching the video (or trying to memorize each frame and then sequence of frames to burn into "my" inner dvr).  a pattern could only be "seen" as a "photo", understood as one concept.

the above pattern of unconcious, notice/guilt, other emotional "management", psychological then behavioral distractions - i think i "got" while meditating.  the urge to "capture" it, but then the last paragraph because i feel more like i'm "in" that pattern (certainly "get" that a little more, but what does "getting" that mean except "i" can't get anything else!)

take 2?

(did this post?)

Reading Marc Lewis blog, how well he wrote triggered my audience question.  His talent extended to how well he replied to commenters.  Another category of audience, I then realized, would be one I anticipated responses from.  I thought of the One, that I the One am not just Marc authoring and commentor commenting on itself, but me not even recorded on that blog.  So Marc thinking he's writing, and having it "validated" by responses, but i am "equally" part of the One senario.  Since we are One, he must know even me, even without my interaction on that blog.  But he knows equally someone who I cross paths with that I may influence with the influence he had on me.  So how's that for an audience!  The infinite eternal itself!

Thank the One Peace for the undo button.  i just erased all the above, and was practicing the safety of each moment.  i just was going to let go for now and considered i might recreate the post tomorrow.  tried that back arrow button, and voila!