the mental state that is incapable of escaping the either/or outcome of a definitive enough event. plus the aftermath of loosing the build up for the loosing outcome. plus the frustration of having this syndrome.
if i'm going to get a red light i would enjoy the scenery. if green i would enjoy the speed, and probably the feeling that things are going my way (that too seeming inescapable, since by habit and even metaphorically, green light can not but be to my favor).
futile attempts to "pretend" a red light is meant to be. and to not notice that i liked getting a green light, which of course to late if i'm noticing that i'm getting a green light!
to notice all the above though, is now an example for this state. i'm not just seeing a red light, a green light, or noticing my "fight" to avoid having my focus captured by the as of yet quantum! state. this metaphorical "sight" seems more reassuring than the intermediate steps described above, like it's another sight in the scenery, more easily taken in like the other sights that are part of the scenery that i might choose to enjoy.
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