Free to be free, and not to be mesmerized by choices

This is the "experience" of Free.  Free to choose anywhere anytime I AM free.  The rest of the where and when is JUST the contrast.  But it was all freely chosen, even the limits the contrast was allowed to go to.  I AM is where the buck stops, or gets spent.  I freely create an "I AM" so it inherently has the freedom to allow Itself, which at its level gets the real juice of freedom to say no.  God Itself wouldn't experience this contrast of freedom except through creating I AMs this way.  Suffering IS the contrast.  Free to go to that extent and free to decide that's far enough on the contrast level!  And then the turning around - or lessening of that contrast.  Even that is part of the free choice, although seemingly from outside time.  Having chosen the "no" path for contrast, a no to one's own Identity, the "yes" path now seems to be against the very experience of the freedom to say no (and so declaring that no to be a separate personal yes!).  This would just be part of the package deal once the time package is finishing up (or from outside time, and also known as NOW!).

Time itself can only reflect (or maybe bastardize!) this freedom.  Real freedom to remember true nature and its absolute freedom of what to due with the Awareness it is, within a "sleeping" character, must project its freedom into the illusory "choice", which projection is the making of "past".  I could of/woulda/shoulda pretend at "free" thinking, of course only now by deluding one step further - by projecting THAT into a "future".  As "bad" as the contrast gets, its just a doubling down on this mechanism to keep a separate character story going instead of being the NOW I AM (which wouldn't erase the story, except to recognize it is a STORY).  And the energy invested in that story has a LOT of momentum to even thwart this dawning recognition (not respecting the dream is to deny one's own power that is making it!).

My free will in the dream IS to realize I AM dreaming.  That the consciousness I have always been IS free (right now) and so can not be the non-peace and faux choices that are demonstrably just gimmicks - though have seemed like Reality.  The "threat" of claustrophobia is a perturbing one, that I am confined to now, and only One (and that it was sane to try to have "escaped" It).  Funny, it's just a Santa Claus of phobias though!  Freedom to Be All that I AM now "should" be quite an enlivening "contrast".  The caveat makes sense too though, that initial freedom from constriction can bring its own fear.  And maybe backing up and noticing THAT is my freedom becoming more free.

Finally, back to the inspiration this came from.  Roger Castillo dovely verbalizing how "my" feeling of what I want IS God's Will expressing Itself, both the "what" and its freeness ( i(t) still has the freedom to "nix" it!).  THIS IS God - BE It!  One Will, "becoming" one in the human experience.